This One and That One

How to get twins to bed in 2 hours or less! Or maybe a little more… 1. Take babies upstairs to my bed. 2. Change diapers.  3. Turn on soothing bedtime lullabies.  4. Turn on star light machine.  5. Make a bottle for the first baby while making sure neither baby crawls off the side of the bed. 6. Feed first baby on boppy using right hand.  7. Use left hand and/or one or both legs and feet to stop the second baby from: • Diving off the side of the bed • Crawling on or smacking the first baby in the head.  • Attacking the dog at the foot of the bed. 8. Do the above while also making sure not to wake the half asleep feeding baby.  9. Burp and Put first baby into their bed asleep. Be very, VERY careful to not wake baby. 10. Fail because you went too fast because the send baby was making a run for the edge of the bed. 11. Put the second baby in baby jail and try to get the first baby back to sleep. Fail.  12. Repeat steps 5-9 with second baby.  • Pray that first baby falls back asleep while

Coming back from my monthlong trip back home, I expected it to take a little longer for the loneliness and sadness to hit again… but it came on basically right away. It’s led my thoughts back to trying to come to terms with the idea of dating again. I don’t really think I’m ready, but who knows if I’ll ever be ready. Jamie and I actually talked a lot about dating and moving on after one of us passed. Not too long before we got sick my pregnancy hormone’s actually had me crying in the kitchen because I was so upset about what he’d do if I died. I didn’t want him to be lonely or to raise our babies alone but I also didn’t want yo think about him falling in love with someone else. I was totally crazy cakes and he told me he’d never be able to move on from me. Plus he said, he wouldn’t have any time with two babies to take care of. (He didn’t even really know how accurate that statement was.) He made jokes about swerving us off a cliff while driving “If I can’t have you no one will!” Which